Recently I've been feeling unfulfilled. I've always had trouble loving my job, primarily as I'm a translator - nothing very exciting but it pays a decent wage. However, a year and a half ago I managed to get a new job (still translating!) and all of a sudden I didn't hate it any more. Now, I'm not saying that I love it either, but you get where I'm going with this.
However, recently I'm so bored at work. Maybe it's just a phase, or maybe this is it. It feels unbelievably depressing to think that this is what I'll be doing for the next 40 odd years. Sigh.
I'm not sure what else I want to do. Or what I can do. I just know that this isn't it.
I love being creative. I love learning new skills, trying things and doing what I want to do. I know, I know, I need to pay the bills. But surely, there must be a better balance than this?
I have all these ideas in my head, all the projects I'd like to start and all the new skills I'd like to master, but I just haven't got the time. What is a girl to do?
I hate being in work all day, planning my evening so I can have at least half an hour of crafting. Only to get home later than expected, more exhausted than expected and then having no time for me. It's getting me down.
Hopefully you haven't clicked on this blog hoping for an answer as I don't have one, yet. I'm determined to figure this out, but I'm unsure how to do that right now.
Oh life is so hard.
Don't get me wrong. My life isn't really that hard at all. I have a good job that pays well, I have an amazing boyfriend, we bought our first house last year and we're off to Thailand in a few weeks. What on earth is this girl moaning about?
I've always been a worrier and I guess this could just be one of my worrying phases, a time before we potentially start a family, when I potentially have less time to myself. A time when I'd like to have a few crafting skills under my belt so I could potentially, one day, maybe, make some money out of it.
I'm very realistic (or pessismistic?) here and know that to make a decent amount of money out of crafting is hard. Like, really hard. But it would be nice to cut down my hours translating so I could do a bit more of what I truly love.
Anyway, I'm glad I have this blog, even if I don't contribute very often. It feels like a diary of sorts where I can ramble on about what's bothering me, and hopefully find that someone else feels exactly the same.
Happy Thursday Everyone - have a good one! xx
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